"I don’t meet people I befriend very often, or I don’t befriend people I meet very often. I say hi, I promise things, but friendship scares me and I remain the stranger I was before we met. But sometimes, sometimes I meet someone that does more to me than scaring me. Sometimes I meet someone who frightens me, thrills me, excites me, terrifies me, someone who I fear losing if I don’t completely devote myself to this person.
And that’s what I do. I hand myself over. I give myself away.
I love and desire to be loved back. I lose myself. I get lost.
While you, while most people, they dont. You hold back and move on. You let go. You know your way out of the maze and you leave. You leave while I stay in there, knowing my way out, but refusing to do so. I’m lost in you.”
Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. We loved each other with a premature love, marked by a fierceness that so often destroys adult lives.
Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What’s there? The window.
What is the last thing you watched on TV? America’s Next Top Model.
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Birds chirping outside and metacognition.
When did you last step outside? What were you doing? I was being dropped off at my house last night.
What are you wearing? Rob’s blue/black flannel shirt and underwear.
Did you dream last night? I had a kid. A boy.
When did you last laugh? Someone last night.
What is on the walls of the room you are in? Lincoln in Dalivision, a picture of a sparrow, a picture of James Dean on a motorcycle under the Brooklyn bridge, and a Marc Jacobs ad.
Heard anything weird lately? ”I think I’m in love with you.” I hope that wasn’t fabricated.
What is the last film you saw? A Bout de Souffle. I want to watch The Fountain and The Jacket.
If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? I would pay off any of my parent’s debts, buy my mom a Camarro, buy myself a new car, pay for my college, create a college fund for both Laura and William, and move out on my own. The rest I would invest and perhaps spend on a new Marc Jacobs purse.
Tell me something about you that I don’t know: I wish I hadn’t met you.
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Everyone would be honest in their relationships.
Do you like to dance? When I’m intoxicated.
Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Lola, Amelie, Lourdes, Olivia, or Lux.
Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Sebastian, Luc, Wes, Liam, or Jean.
Would you ever consider living abroad? I already have considered it.
What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? I don’t know if I believe in God.